Positively Scarred

I’m on the verge of being 24 and I have already been through so much. More than I let on and a lot of it still effects me to this day, whether it be predominant in my current life or not. I don’t know if I could sum it up in a blog post. Maybe a series.

I have mentioned before that I struggle with social situations and relationships, and that I have suffered from anxiety and depression for many years. I’ve also mentioned my battle with self mutilation and my coinciding downward spiral when I was in my early teens. And if you follow me at all on Twitter or have read previous posts, you know I beat myself up a lot and self-loathing is second nature to me.

I have been ridiculed, hurt, mentally and emotionally abused… I have had countless panic attacks and have been depressed for many years. I was picked on and teased and taunted growing up all through til my sophomore year (when I transferred schools).

I don’t show it but I still hurt inside. But that’s the thing about me… No matter how badly I’m hurting, I always rise above and overcome it. I have come a long way from the self-mutilating teen I once was. People still want to say things and assume things about me and my life, but I push it aside as best as I can because they don’t know. They never will. I’m a strong capable human being. No matter how many times I get knocked down, I always rise up and stand tall.

Like a skyscraper.