Positively Scarred

“You aren’t going to find the ‘right’ person now, babe. You’ve still got way too much work to do on yourself. Your options are to date no one, or to keep dating with the purpose of learning, not falling.”

A very wise friend of mine said the above quote to me a few months ago relating to a bad dating experience I had. “Bad” as in it just ended on bad terms and I was launched into an episode of self-loathing that lasted a few weeks. More recently, I haven’t been in the mindset to put myself back out there and date. I’ve found myself having fun being single, doing things by myself, taking times to do things for myself.

I gave myself a mani/pedi last week just because I found my nail polishes and nail files. And it felt nice to just do that for myself. To not have to impress anybody. I didn’t wear makeup for a month because I chose not to and didn’t care. But hearing my friends’ stories about their dates and significant others, made me miss going out to dinner, movies, coffee, or to play pool. So when I got asked on a date, I was excited.

So tonight I will put on makeup, wear cute shoes, don a smile and enjoy an evening out with someone who I find to be an interesting and entertaining person. And I’ll keep in mind that I’m doing this for myself, for the experience, and for the company of a really cool person. And if, in the future, this turns out to be something more… then I’ll cross that bridge when I get to it. For now, it’s about the moment, not about the future.